in memory of promises

why do we make silly promises to our better halves? "if we break up, i dun think i can ever fall in love again." fren says i'm damn stupid to actually believe such things, but i do. but that is the beauty of young love isnt it, u believe everything someone tells, ur heart melts n u become oblivious to all rational analysis. i was so silly to tink a decision of mine had ruined the life of someone i loved. i blamed myself for it for almost a year. june says i have savior complex, i tink i can save the world. mayb it's true, mayb i m jus deluded that i m especially influential to people.

ok i admit, i am never smart when it comes to r/s. is that a good thing or bad?

i dunno, i guess it takes foolishness to fall in love, but wisdom to stay in love. some things i let it lie around my room, i forget its presence, i wan to keep it away but would rather leave it untouched for fear i cant hold back tears. this silly emotional side of mine. but when the time comes to let go n move on, do memories become what is hindering my step forward? while i am pondering how my last step has created a butterfly effect to the people around me, the butterfly effect did not happen, and everyone has moved on. while one side of me tortures myself for having moved on, the intellectual side of me congratulates this advance of mine.

there is no one i shd b concerned abt making happy, other than myself. this is have learnt, it is only when i am at peace with myself, can i love him who loves me. in the past i have always been concerned abt giving, and making my significant other happy, to the point of muting my own needs n wants... now i learn to tell him what i want, when i am angry with him, and i do thank God that tho he is busy, he takes time to listen to me...

i am thankful for my past, for i have learnt lessons from it, but all the more i m hopeful for my future, where i can apply those lessons i learnt. i'm thankful for bobo, he has taught me to b independent, yet is there ready to catch me when i fall... i dunno where this move wil bring me, but it wil be one journey filled with more lessons to learn, and that is the beauty of it all.

a successful courtship is not one that ends in marriage, but one where 2 parties learn whether they r suited for spending the rest of their lives together. when i realise my one decision did not cause the end of the world, i m relieved to try greater things.

but i shall learn to adopt dis principle, not to believe any promise that cannot b proven to materialise within 6 months after the promise had been made